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About Me Premium Member Procrastinator Daniel Streetcat16/Male/Israel Recent Activity Deviant for 3 Years
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I'm trying to be really picky about what's going in here.

Get Lost

You are IN a CITY. Inside a HOUSE. In front of a COMPUTER.
WHY are you in a CITY HOUSE with a COMPUTER?! >_< GTFO and have a soulful of nature, god demmit!

Girl Love

Ah, sweet subscription: you give me new ways to get in everybody's face with my socially unacceptable fascinations!

spike

Report THIS, stupid anties!

Shoutbox

~Genny-Raskin:iconGenny-Raskin:
I miss you!
Sat Jun 13, 2009, 11:09 AM
*Crawling-meower:iconCrawling-meower:
All better now! :=}
Mon Jun 8, 2009, 5:11 AM
~Genny-Raskin:iconGenny-Raskin:
Get well soon! :heart:
Mon Jun 1, 2009, 10:43 PM
*Crawling-meower:iconCrawling-meower:
WTF, Bezeq and Kavei Zahav suck balls. But now i'm back online.
Thu May 14, 2009, 4:23 AM
~Genny-Raskin:iconGenny-Raskin:
If you are still alive, Read my journal! Now, b**ch! ;) :D
Tue May 12, 2009, 12:42 AM
*Crawling-meower:iconCrawling-meower:
In the red corner, all the way from Russia, at feather-light weight it's Balsam the Wizard!
Thu Apr 30, 2009, 11:39 AM
~BalsamTheWizard:iconBalsamTheWizard:
Boxing boxing boxing XD
Wed Apr 29, 2009, 1:22 PM
*Crawling-meower:iconCrawling-meower:
For shouting and boxing.
Sun Apr 5, 2009, 4:06 PM
~LenaRaskin:iconLenaRaskin:
What shoutboxes for are? a???
Sun Apr 5, 2009, 9:42 AM
~Genny-Raskin:iconGenny-Raskin:
myau!
Thu Apr 2, 2009, 9:46 PM
*Crawling-meower:iconCrawling-meower:
Yes! You can definitely have some cotton candy! Just don't ask Tomi about the small print on that answer... XD
Thu Apr 2, 2009, 4:43 PM
~ShirelG:iconShirelG:
Yay! Then can I have some carmel apples? And cotton candy? And crawling-meower pie?
Sat Mar 28, 2009, 9:57 AM
*Crawling-meower:iconCrawling-meower:
Thanks to DAS, now my front page is a freaking amuzement park! :=D
Fri Mar 27, 2009, 9:26 PM

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Task Queue

* Upload the waterbird sequence. {Do i still have it?}

* Edit DZ minichapters 3 & 4 for spelling, grammar, brainfart removal, coma control, + utilize commenters' advice.

* Write #5, proofread and upload #6.

* Upload the necklace, dumb fuck. {Do i still have the pictures?}

* Edit old crap.

* Start forum activity.

Visitors

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~InsectDevil
Jul 15, 2009
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Jul 15, 2009
1:06 pm
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~ShirelG
Jul 15, 2009
12:09 pm
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~crappy-comic-artist
Jul 15, 2009
8:43 am
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=TrollGirl
Jul 15, 2009
6:56 am

Does DZ need any appendixes?

31%
4 deviants said YES, anything that can make immesrion fuller.
31%
4 deviants said WHO CARES? Nobody reads this shit anyway, Go Brave Fisherman off a plane.
15%
2 deviants said NO, none at all, because that would be cheating. Any information you cannot fluidly reveal through the story itself - shouldn't be revealed at all.
8%
1 deviant said Only two of these three. I just said which two in a comment.
8%
1 deviant said Only one of these three. I just said which one in a comment.
8%
1 deviant said NO, none of these. Only a glossary for non-english words, and non-english figures of speach the characters use in english. No in-world information, though.
0%
No deviants said YES, a glossary on in-world terms, a cast of political powers and corporations and a timeline of the events leading from the world we know to 2050 it happens in.
0%
No deviants said OTHER, as i just explained in a comment..

I DID WUT NAO +features

Journal Entry: Sun Jun 21, 2009, 1:13 PM
  • Mood: Questionable
  • Listening to: Can't find my music backups :={
  • Reading: Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire
  • Playing: Myst Uru, but can't continue due to a bug
  • Eating: i intend to, honestly
  • Drinking: fruitea






Dear watchers!
I really need your input right now. And i ask that you use your heads, not your hearts, when you offer that input. It may not sound like much, but this is a serious matter for me, and the choice i'll end up making will have consequences for my immediate life.
So only reply after reading {NOT "just skimming"}, understanding, and THINKING please.

Heara just called.
Some of you know, but most don't: Heara is a company i used to work for. Tutoring roleplaying classes for children. Basically, DMing for money; to kids. Sounds right down my alley, right? Not that simple, though:
When i worked for them, it was quite some time {a year? I'm not sure} before my final fall. I started to grow worse and worse at it, which was especially problematic since i was the guy whom they gave any groups that other tutors could not handle. So any slip with one of MY groups was a much more serious business than it would be with a more vanilla group.
So yeah, my deterioration ended in the only way it could and i got fired. Wasn't pretty. Now that i think of it, the impact of my degradation on the more basic stuff {like remembering when and where i need to be, et c} probably contributed more to the decision of firing me, than its impact on my actual work performance. The sad thing is i actually earned it {for the latter reason} long before they actually fired me {mainly for the former reason}.

Some of you may not know this: since that time, although i kept growing worse, i was pretty much ignoring it and persisted in my attempts to function like a normal human.
I got a perfect job at some point and i was great at it, until my total breakdown {not the right word for it, but explaining will be too long and painful} came. After that breakdown {and the short time i consequently spent at a closed ward in the loony bin}, i was no good for anything and my pretending-i'm-normal days seemed over.
I've been struggling to get help, to varying degrees of success, but searching for work again seemed, and still seems, like utter madness {Ha!}.

But now i suddenly get a call. Minor details dropped, it was: "Hello, Daniel. I'm [name] from Heara, and i see that you've worked for us in the past. Would you be interested in coming back?"
I asked for time to consider her offer. I am expected to call back tomorrow.

The obvious question is WHAT do i do?
Searching for job and attempting an interview would be madness, sure enough, but now it seems like she's offering me the job on a silver plate, so it reduces the question to whether i can handle the job itself or not {yes, i am perfectly aware of how ridiculously pathetic i sound, thank you very much}.
I suddenly feel as though new insights and other things will make it possible to make it work. But i also know how illusory this feeling can often be: when things get real, the brain fog and all the other cognitive problems press hard, there's nothing to do about them on a short-term scale, when they're already there. The psychological WALL is... well, i've said everything about it in a poem. One good shrink seemed to be saying she knows exactly what to do about it, just before the time i was allowed with her ended. I'm not even taking into account here the many problems that are actually manageable {unlike the two mentioned} or those that aren't understood enough yet to predict them.

If i go for it, and it miraculously works out - it'll be an enormous step towards getting back on my feet for me. But if i do and it fails {which, hate this fact as i may, is logically FAR more likely} - that'll be yet another powerful strike, and i've already {as my current situation indicates} taken more such strikes than i can take.
Granted, i don't really think my ability to fight for getting help would be diminished even further {hardly possible} by such a blow. Only my ability to live {in the sense that is VERY distinct from "to exist"}.

So yeah, i'm open to suggestions.
Just, before you post a dismissive "Go for it! I'm sure you'll do fine!", please ask yourself, what you base this certainty on. If you don't - i will. This is not DAS.

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[UPDATE]

I've practically reached a decision. The decision is to take it. Can't call today, as it's too late now, but tomorrow should be possible {or Sunday, if they don't work Fridays this year}

But their table of opening hours isn't the only thing preventing me from making that call.
I don't even know how to explain it. I pretty much made the choice, but i need someone to hold my hand through this. And yes, i know i sound pitiful, but this is what's left. I can't do it on my own. I don't just mean the call itself, but the whole thing with bringing this decision into action.

There's no more i can say harmlessly about it all. Gonna try calling my father. Maybe something he says will give me more confidence.

Input is still very welcome. Anyone who knows me to any extent, and hasn't commented yet - your thoughts will be very appreciated!

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[moar update]

Too tired to reply properly now. Those i haven't responded to yet - will be responded to, soon as i can.

Thank you all for the input. It all helped me come to a decision. And now, ~Genny-Raskin's and Gal's posts have {from two completely different angles} added something that was missing. It is even possible that i'll be able to make the call alone now. The two of you are full of awesome.

Yesterday, Spooky offered to hold me through this: we were planning for me to come over on sunday, then make the call under her aegis. Of course, i forgot to take into account that i'm a fucking reta-- that i have appointments with the {hostile-minded} social worker and the {useless} shrink on that day, making it out of the question for me to go to another city on that morning, seeing as my chances of getting a rebilitation program are contingent on these appointments. I was reminded of that about an hour ago.

So my only chance is if i manage to do it on my own tomorrow. The two of you made that chance tangible. I'll post with the results, of course.

I have no idea how much time they're willing to wait. They don't work weekends, but it's possible my lack of reply on Thursday already closed that door. However, if this door is not so eager to slam shut - then maybe a failure tomorrow would not be final and i'll be able to try {with a volunteer's help} on the next day.
Meh, we'll see.

* * *

[FINAL UPDATE]
It is done.
She added me to the list, which the company uses to assess how many available mentors they have. She'll contact me at the beginning of August, when they start to divide these between the clients they'll have.
So, until then - it's back to playing whack-a-thought, i suppose. Which has become harder, owing to the addition of new factors.
Oh CRAP, i'm becoming a blogger. >_<

Anyway, big thanks to those who helped me with the decision and with gaining the strength to do it. Feature time!

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:iconshirelg:

:iconjhelana:

:iconelcool:

:iconruthia:

:icono0otamarao0o:

:icongenny-raskin:


Not being on dA, Gal and another friend of mine cannot be featured, but i'm no less grateful to them. :=}
There were a few whose opinion i was really hoping to hear, both on dA and off it... but i suppose they were busy at the time.





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What am i supposed to put in these links?
My only website is this dA gallery...





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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: What's left of Israel
  • Interests: Many. Do i practice any of them? No, not really. :=/
  • Favourite movie: The Professional, Dogma, Team America: World Police, What Dreams May Come, many moar
  • Favourite band or musician: Smoosh, Elvenking, Spooks, and many israelies.
  • Favourite genre of music: Hip-hop, flowercore, israeli, classic, and many other things.
  • Favourite artist: Magritte, Boticelli, `Zancan, ~Trollgirl
  • Favourite poet or writer: Poets: Alterman,Byalik,Shakespear,Brodsky,Wylde... Writers are even harder to pick
  • Favourite photographer: ~Lemonwedge, Sally Mann, and a prospect of one posing for the other.
  • Favourite style of art: What ~Kulideb {digital} and ~TrollGirl {traditional} do
  • Operating System: windows 2000 due to lazyness, and hating it
  • Favourite game: D&D?
  • Favourite cartoon character: Pink Panther
  • Personal Quote: still working on that one
  • Tools of the Trade: Backpack, rope, knife, alpenstock

Comments


Thanks for the fav ^^
[link]
Even I went AWWWW.

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"If anything can go wrong, it shall go wrong".
Heh, nice. Extra points for the facial expression and the punch-gloves.

But... no. I really don't like the direction this picture is hinting at. Good model, bad choice of costume.

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Witness accounts:
"I'm not sure what you are, but something thin that baaaas a lot." ~TrollGirl
"It was horrible, darling! That thing crawled and meowed!" ~ a neighbor
":giggle: meowy crawler thingy :-) :hug:" ~Zananeichan
Thankyou fot the :+fav: :"D
Have a great week :"D
My pleasure. :=}

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Witness accounts:
"I'm not sure what you are, but something thin that baaaas a lot." ~TrollGirl
"It was horrible, darling! That thing crawled and meowed!" ~ a neighbor
":giggle: meowy crawler thingy :-) :hug:" ~Zananeichan
Thanks for the add ^^

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-Allatwan.

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Allatwan= huge Myst and fantasy fan, wannabe hacker, weird singer, bad visual artist, messy writer, but still a deviant member- I wonder why? Maybe 'coz it's just fun! <;)
Whoops! Meant "watch".... :P

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-Allatwan.

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Allatwan= huge Myst and fantasy fan, wannabe hacker, weird singer, bad visual artist, messy writer, but still a deviant member- I wonder why? Maybe 'coz it's just fun! <;)
Purrrr mroah

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Witness accounts:
"I'm not sure what you are, but something thin that baaaas a lot." ~TrollGirl
"It was horrible, darling! That thing crawled and meowed!" ~ a neighbor
":giggle: meowy crawler thingy :-) :hug:" ~Zananeichan
Why the purr? OK, yeah, you're going to tell me "I'm a crawling meower", but STILL! :lol: Weird... Here's a shrimp roll! My cat used to love shrimps and crab paté... :( I don't know if her gets that now, wherever he is...

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-Allatwan.

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Allatwan= huge Myst and fantasy fan, wannabe hacker, weird singer, bad visual artist, messy writer, but still a deviant member- I wonder why? Maybe 'coz it's just fun! <;)
I often express positive emotions by purring. In real life too. ^_^

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Witness accounts:
"I'm not sure what you are, but something thin that baaaas a lot." ~TrollGirl
"It was horrible, darling! That thing crawled and meowed!" ~ a neighbor
":giggle: meowy crawler thingy :-) :hug:" ~Zananeichan

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